summer, (l)over

how could i ever forget?
your earnest proclamation: 
you missed california's light most
while suffering through winter in brooklyn
or the way you would stop and smell lavender with your whole body

one cycle of the moon's phases
burned these memories into my brain
and i am certain it will take many more moons to erase them

listening to songs i wish i had writ on repeat
at least i wish we could listen together
but you don't want to hear anything from me
so for now you'll keep laughing in my head
and maybe someday i'll see your smile outside of my skull

"don't ever compromise what you believe"

i still mean what i say
though convictions are strange
and having feelings even weirder
how do i tell everyone i miss and love them all at once?

oh look, i'm still thinking about you

i can't do anything
that reminds me of you
which rules out everything
that reminds me of you
which is everything